Look at it this way, when you win a nobel prize all the pakistanis will call you a muslim hero and on your tombstone will write first muslim women to get a science nobel prize and then the pashtoon talib sangar will come and cross muslim and you will be elevated to first women to get a science nobel, an even higher achievement.
As far as gloomy memories are concerned, that is my expertise, there is a process called "reconsolidation" whereby you can change gloomy/painful/fearful memories into neutral ones. I personally dont have any gloomy/painful/fearful memories left. I still have the memories but no emotional reactivity with it, that has been modified by reconsolidation.