Ah dont let the cricket get you down, whatever Allah wills. I seriously understand your position, I've dossed for two years =/ InshAllah khair

The difficulty of the work is just hitting you, it's part of the learning process =P eventually you'll get it all, iA. Nothing begins easy. Eliminate anything that distracts you and pray lots. I'll send you some duas iA.

If your head is hurting, then take a break and unwind a little.

I'll reply once I've prayed, InshAllah =)